Assignment 6- Katie Demos

You should already know that I'm going to talk about music.
I could go on and on about it and I haven't even started; what follows may be a jumble of incoherent and scattered thoughts. And I think that's okay, because I think that's an accurate idea of how music makes me feel sometimes.
I want to know why I love it so much. Why I head bang, why I sing along, why I tap my fingers to a beat. The feeling is indescribable; I can be whipped into a trance yet be thrown back into the heat of a moment within seconds of a tempo change. I can be taken to pastoral country land or the back of a beat-down jazz bar when I'm actually just sitting alone in my room, and it all has to do with a syncopated rhythm or a major chord.  How? Why?
So I suppose I want to know the science side as to why I can feel the way I do about music. I also want to be able to enunciate what it is, and I want to help other people feel the same way about music as I do. I want to find people like me and discuss the level of beauty and reverence that I find in music. Music is my religion, it's my philosophy, my art, my therapy. Even now my words fall short and sound cliche. I want to learn how to change that.
Of course, I also want to spread myself further and delve deeper into my abilities. If I could learn every instrument, talk to every musician and take a lesson from every teacher, or even try to compose some, I would. Or will, hopefully. It's not just a dream of mine, it's a goal. Music is my passion, and I want to be taught how to spread that wealth to the rest of the world however I can, while also fulfilling myself.